Sunday, December 24, 2006.

New Year Resolution

Haha... It's so not me to think of new year resolution, well, it's time for some chances. Come to think of it, I had joined VIP for more than 2 years. WOW, TWO years leh, time really flies. Everyone grown up so much! Qt going clubbing. Qt, Yc, Sy (they usually don't) wearing skirts. Yc found her first bf. Ky, Sharlyn, even Hafizah goes clubbing/pub-ing. Yl & Ky started thier own business. Haha. WOW! 2 years ago, you all were just merely 16 odd. Still alittle too "naive" too "new", and now everyone grown up liao. Amazing! that oso means I'm old liao. lol.

Compare with all of you, my grown this 2 years seems so small, so tiny, so insignificant. Why? I think I stay in my comfort zone a little way too much, with a little sturbborn thoughts. Blaming on things that happened that made me who I am, instead of truly learn from them. In another words, I remorse too much of what happened around me and didn't really moved on. Always been waiting for things to happen but not making them to happen.

In fact, I could actually say my growth stopped 2 years ago. Come to think of it, compare 2 years from now, nothing much about myself have changed. Well, so much for a background updates.

After gathering my thoughts for sometimes, the following are my New Year Resolution.

1) to expand my social circle whenever a chance is given
2) to expose myself to new stuff. "You're young, so do not be afraid to try. Remember, you only live once" -xy
3) to regain what I lost in the past 2 years. (fighting-spirit)
4) be true to my own feeling. (afraid of getting hurt, i somehow or another, sub-consciously restrict myself to feel in a certain way. lack of emotions, lack of expressing myself.)

The above mentioned resolution are rather general, here are some that are more break down.

1) whenever there's an outing, go! don't stay at home.
2) read the newspapers in the office every lunch break. (Yup, in the past, i dun read newspaper, books nor magazine. In my own little world)
3) to regain my fighting spirit, I need to train up physically. I had always blame on my weakness and using the pain I have as an excuse to not exercise. For everything to change, THIS must change first!
4) when something happened, dun think how should I feel about it, just feel it. whatever feeling comes in, accept it and not think about it.

Hmmm.... think I should set an achieveable yet difficult goal for myself to make things alittle interesting... Well, I do have 1 in my mind now... Suefong, if you're reading this, I hope I could join in for next years 21km stardard chartered run. =p it seems a little impossible looking at my current physical fitness. lol. but oh well, I have 1 year b4 the event, I should have more than enough time for the preparation.

Seems like I have quite alot to accomplish. Haha. At least I felt alot since I had always live my life without any expectation. My parents dun really have much expectation for me, I dun like living with expectation from myself or other. Time for a change, but come to think of it again the above mentioned "expectation" isn't some major expectation either. lol.

B0mb3r screamed @ 11:37 PM