It's Time To Change
Went for Jacky Bday celebration at Sakae Sushi. Haha. Seems like my gift for him on my bday was abit extra liao... He already forgive me long ago, "it's the past liao la, forget it liao"
Oh, didn't know sakae sushi got private rooms. so cool! so "got face". haha. VIP wor... haha... the service and the environment is so much better.
Then went to coffee bean and chatted with the gang, it's been quite awhile since we last chatted... got quite alot of gossip and interesting topics that we talk about. Really enriching talking to them, coz they showed me alot of different views since we are from different age group... and since i'm the youngest among the group, haha, they gave me more pointers to what things are suppose to be done when things happened. Althou I dun really agree with them (some of it), I think they have the reason by saying that. To a certain extend, I think I should change my thoughts towards certain things. Althou my way of handling it doesn't have any problem, their methods seems fine too.
Well, 1 thought worth mentioning. They told me my circle of friends isnt too big. Well, I guess it's true. I believe they notice it during the BBQ. Althou I'm fine with just a small circle of friends, but friends do comes and go, which is what's happening. so it's never enough to have just a certain groups of friends. When there's a chances to meet new people, opened up and talk and have fun. They even suggest me to go for speed dating, haha, even got someone to accompany me for it if there's a chance. They kept asking me to get a gf, even give me tips to hit on a girl... lol. gosh! guess what? the tips they gave are actually things i actually know yet I never really practise it. =p It's not my personality to practise it I guess, but certain pointers worth taking note of.
hmmmm... xueyu knows quite abit about my last relationship with vanessa and she takes it as a "case study" and tell me something which is true that i never noticed. We didn't officially started it neither did we officially ended it. Since we never really officially ended it, the pain I felt wasn't as great as if it officially ended. Althou we acted like couples b4, but we are not official. Meaning, we does not need to answer for each others action. It's kind of like saying, she can turned around anytime as well as I could do the same. That explain why we quarrelled over an issue when she said she felt inferior whenever she's with me. I never understand what's she's trying to say when she's actually much much much more stronger in terms of abilities and family background. And my understanding of the word inferior was small or 微不足道. But now, after the chit chat, I understood what went on... lol... abit late to understand but it's better to understand than to forever dun get it. And that further tells me that I actually missed out a lot of chances when I actually have the chances. I prefered and often stay in my comfort zone and WAIT for the perfect one to appear. That's kind of wrong to just plain waiting. "Ride on the cow and wait for the horse and pray that the cow will become the horse" ehhhh... dun quite agree with that logic yet I do see a point in what's she's trying to say...
Almost all of them thinks that I still trying to live in my own fantasy world, thinking that fairytales, fantasy and miricle does exist where knights, dragons and princesses were around me. Simply put, they think that I'm still childish without enough exposure. Was a little pissed when they mentioned that but I didn't react. After I calmed down and listen to their explanation, ya, come to think of it. There are many times when I think of fairytales and miricles might come true when I pray hard or work hard. I need to face the fact more and stop finding excuses for myself to ignore the problems. It's true that certain things can be ignored and life goes on as per normal, but your growth in term of knowledge / wisdom / experience does not.
Well, bottomline here. I need to change my lifestyle, more or less. Pointers taken. Thanks guys.
B0mb3r screamed @ 12:12 AM