Once In A Full Moon Post
Happy Vesak Day! Haha... Supposingly today is Miao Zhen's bday and I'm suppose to date her today as I had promised her if her bday no1 date her, i'll date her... but called her last night and knew that she had a date oredi... she actually wanted to spare me some time so i can date her... but I said, "bu le, tai ma fang ni le, spare me time, dun want la" haha... i think she gets what i mean, i dun wan to meet her if someone is meeting and celebrating for her oredi... haha... *evil*
Well... PH... seems like the usual sundays I have... BORING!!! shouldn't have rejected her offer for a date... then very sian... so I went cycling... 8++ like that went out... wanted to go esplanade to sit down... but too crowded... wanted somewhere quiet so i can sit down and think... so i cycled on... sad to say, I'm in the city, there's no much place that is more rural and quiet... so I decided to cycle all the way back to ECP...
guess what... along the way, I actually calmed myself down (coz earlier on, felt bored and it turned into felt troubled and xing bu ning jing) but well, wanted to go home 1, but dunno why, maybe fate bah... I followed the traffic light and turn accordingly (if it's red light, I'll turn to the flow of the traffic which is turn left... if it's red light but green right turn, i'll turn right) and it brings me to ECP! lol
well, went to the usual spot to chill out... think of quite a couple of stuff... some are not worth mentioning here... got 1 that's worth talking... The feeling for her was gone for good, that's for sure... what's left behind is the feeling of guilt... seriously, I really "dui bu qi" her... to the core... that's what i believe... but another thing, that come along with it... I gotten my retribution oredi... due to this, I had lots my sec friend, or rather what's leftover of my sec friend that I have... losing them, not just from close friend to friend... but close friend to strangers... I think that's my retribution... and that's paid... (hopefully, my sub-conscious mind will buy that... lol)
surprisingly, I received a sms from jackson (a long "lost" sec friend that lives near my house) he jio me to go makan somewhere our house... well... since i'm pretty free, so met up with him... still, he's as "cool" as b4... but after awhile, he gets very talkative... keep talking and talking... and make me a good listener... lol... in the past, he dun talk much 1... "cool" or "dao" if you wanna say... anyway, I rmb he said this once b4 "I feel easy talking to you, I dunno why, but you seems to know how I feel" that was ard 1 year ago... it happened when he's troubled with the problem of a girl (currently his gf)... I'm like a "advicer" to him at that point of time... b4 that, I really dun talk to him much...
talk to him from 10.45 all the way to 2am... or rather he talk from the head to the tail... i listen most of the time... but oso got la... he's like a news reporter... I get to know how's my old clicks doing... Berwyn had this ger name "Mei Mei" as his gf (mei mei is a basketball player from mjr that we used to hang ard with)... Darren's Navy Stories... Yiping's "tian zhen de xiang fa"... Yu wen's boreness... Yiping's sister working bad experience... Zion's disappearing actions... Eng kee enlist date... etc la... feel so close yet so far from all those... They are the people I once used to hang out with almost everyday, but now... it's been years since I seen them... or i did see them, but it's just hi and bye...
heard alot of stories of what he wants to do in the near future, setting up a business... how it works... what's the problem... the solutions... etc... all of a sudden, felt that "I still dunno what I want in the near future", "I dun even know what I want now", "feel lost... but not troubled over it..."
B0mb3r screamed @ 2:32 AM