Back to life... but face the reality
back to life but face the reality... sound abit lifely... yet sad... =p
let's talk about the happy thing...
first, I BLOG AGAIN! haha... coz todae got things happened mah... i didn't stay home all day... haha...
went out to repair bike around 4pm... bought another new lock since i dunno where the hell the old one missing to? the repair cost was 3 bucks and the new lock cost me 12 bucks... 15 bucks just flew off just like that...
then I cycled to the familar place... ECP! today I cycled towards bedok jerry direction... since my mum wanna meeet me later at tampines... jerry was so much more crowded than usual... I guess the JC peeps and sec/pri sch peeps are having holidaes, that's why...
then, i cycled towards SAFRA country club chalet.... then towards changi village... along the way, I stopped once... cause feeling abit the uncomfortable, feel like vomitting (no serious), and tired la... cause really very very very very long never cycle or exercise liao.... ehhh.... then was chase away by the police... coz I was standing somewhere near the "Emergency Entrance" for fire engine or what so ever... He told me la... "I stand there, might set the alarm off... coz they dunno what i do there..." (terrorist?) haha... lame enough la... but well... I politely reply... alright, I'll move off... I been there many many times lor... that's the first time i see police there lor... I have this feeling they are there to slack lor! coz I was there earlier... then they came... they didn't ask me to move away when they reach here... only after awhile, then they call for me... while the time of after awhile, what are they doing? (my back facing them) SLACK LA! haha... I think they come out with this lame reason to "scare" me away... so they can slack there all they want...
well... I didn't really lost anything la... I recover from the uncomfortable feeling... and I notice it's rather a good spot for sunset viewing! hmmm... shall try it next time!
then cycle to changi village... got abit the lost for awhile... coz long time no been there... ehhh... but found my way after awhile... then cycle to tampines to meet my mum... ate dinner... then I call my poly friend... to meet up...
He's darren... my poly cum secondary "brother" la... A friend that I often hang out with in secondary life... and poly life... He dated me some days ago... that was during the MJR camp... but I'm having camp... so I pushed it away...
He dated me for a meeting rather urgent... that's why I'm abit the worried... coz he's the middle man of the BASTARD i mention much much much earlier in the blog... then I worried there's something going on recently... so... haha... once I'm on my bike again, I thou of meeting him oredi...
met him... there's nothing much la... he just told me... becoz really long time nv see me... come to think of it... the last time was like during our poly study time... during the pre-exam period... then we never went out oredi...
The reason for not going out together was the sad part for this post... coz that BASTARD said he scare I'll scold him... I WAS LIKE WHAT THE HELL LOR!!! if i really want to scold him, I'll call him up... I'll look for him... I'll even bash him up lor... BUT! i didn't lor! I even encourage him to study hard during that period of time... I even told him if he has any problem or difficulty, can look for me... I EVEN ASK DARREN TO LOOK AFTER HIM FOR ME LOR!!!
I ADMIT! I have a ah beng look and character "sometimes"... but I never been unreasonable with any one b4... I never use vulgarities on my friends... AND MOST IMPORTANTLY! I never ever even laid a finger on my friends... what's even more ridiculous? I ever told him right in the face, "no matter what happened in the future, I promise you, I'll never bash my friends up because of a woman".. I even had a friendster testimonial for him... that promise him I won't bash my friends up because of a woman! YET HE DID THAT TO ME!
indirectly, he's isolating me with no friends... my close contactable friends are his friends too... and he's getting them out... without asking me along! what kind of friend is that sia... for this reason, it's enough for me to scold him up side down sia! He better dun do any more thing funny the next time... or I'll make sure he pay for it...
sad to say too... why would I say no friends when I have my VIP mates with me? why would I say no friends when I have shu ting, jin ying and ren jie in manjusri? for one simple reason, we are not close buddy... not even yu ching... sorry yu ching... I know it might sound hurting to ya...
close buddy are friends that I can really talk to them very freely... anything in the world can become our topic... girls wearing mini-skirt that walk past... yellow n blue jokes... how we break school rulez without getting caught... how we go after any girl that we are interested... getting drunk together... our similar interests... our similar hubbies... our 8 years past history together... our true deep secrets... anything!
the feeling... the connections... the historys... it's so close... it's so memorible... doing the silly things together... spent our time together... so treasureable...
althou I'm rather very close with yu ching, but we are not really that close... as compare with them, it's really a different feeling... it's like... I feel so free and easy in front of them, no restrictions at all, no worry of being a joker, no worry of making a mistake, I can just do what I want, speak what I want...
but for any other ppl, after awhile of no meeting up... we see each other again... there's a feeling of an invisible distance... have this stranger kind of feeling... althou not really serious, but have this, slight warm up time before normal.... feel abit fake myself... to say hi so friendly... when i felt the distance...
How to say leh? ehhh... *thinking* the best I can come out with... is a question... How much thick and thin have I been thru with VIP mates, and my buddys? or re-ask yourself the question... pick a close friend of yours... and what's your answer?
I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE THEY WENT GENTING WITHOUT ME!!!! ASSHOLES!!!! =p
B0mb3r screamed @ 1:44 AM