Twist of Fate
come Izone just for the sake of blooging... I was having my lunch alone in the canteen, short circuit... not surprise, when I'm alone, I tend to daydream and imagine things...
I recall the time when I kanna that accident which I call it the twist of fate now... I can still remember how I decided with the AB choice for vanessa and I. AB - ask her to be my gf, yet ask her to not stop looking for her Mr. right... Why do I have to daydream when I cycle? and let the Twist of Fate happen... How amazing fate it is? all this happen when the relationship is shaky... come to think of it... On her birthday, I wanted to "propose" to her... but... ended up she forgot to reply me... her forgetness never happen any other days... but that day... isn't it irony?
Maybe that's what chinese saying "you yuan wu feng" 2 incident that broke us up... 1st, the forgetness that happen on the day I wanna ask her the "important" question... 2nd, the accident that happen almost right after I decided my decision after a week of thinking... I really starts to believe that fate want us to be seperated...
can't you see? ever since I'm close with her, nothing happy had really happened to her... Her mood on her blog was always stress and sad... but after a month of the "broke up" she's happy... smiling like she used to be... for that instance, I really feel happy for her... she finally smiles again... but... how come another month past, she got inferno? really wonder what happened to her now...
promise is an promise... I curse myself, if I ever unblock her from my msn, I'll break my leg again... that's the worse curse I could ever give myself... hai~ who ask myself to have such weak determinations on her... and had promise her quite a few things... I guess... it's best for us... to forever not to meet again... I really wonder what will happen if we see each other... could that be another twist of fate? or it will just be a passby of the shoulders?
seems to me, my nu ren yuan is still quite there... recently, heard some feng sheng, got a 2.2 ger likes me... even use my birthday as her password... hmmm... althou I agar agar know who that ger is, promise is a promise... I promise myself over vanessa that at least till I went in NS, I'll not look for a gf... honestly, without that promise, I might try my luck... althou i know it's not fair and irresponsible to say this, but I'm oso human... I'm darn lonely almost everyday... can you imagine? you decided to break off with someone you love? then your closest friends had oredi left you? your "best" friend is a bastard? currently, my RC friends are with me... but the age different and the time incompairdible... I dun get to be with them as much as I wanted... how lonely things can get?
come to think of it, at least she and apple are still friends... althou I hate apple to the core right now, but at least I know apple and her are still friends... they see each other machiam looking at themselves in the mirror... She got lots of admirer that is willing to spend time on her... honest speaking, till now... I still dunno what's regret... The choice I had made, C, was not wrong at all... althou she's inferno right now... but i know... someone... maybe Nicky, is around her... to comfort her, an wei her... she's at least been watched over... althou I dare not say it's in the safe hand... but at least, she's been taken care of...
actually, I'm quite worried if that person happen to be yu wen... yuwen's friendster now change to In A Relationship... that's quite weird... honestly, if vanessa is with yuwen, I'm more than happy... althou I know they are not as compaidable... but I know yuwen won't bully or do bad things to vanessa... in the safe hand at least... but if they are together, yet wen refuse to let me know... then it's quite upset... I might blow my top on him for not telling me... If they are really together, and yu wen refuses to let me know... then forever! dun let me find out... please!!! I had lost enough friends oredi... I dun want to lost another 1...
For quite sometime I never say this liao... but since I blog so much on this topic today... Good Luck... to you... Vanessa....
B0mb3r screamed @ 4:01 PM