Break Off From Camp Last Night!!!
WOW! I'm free once again... tired man!!! Have not been slping enough since the first day I attend the first contact session of the VIP. Althou it's tiring, but it's really really fun and great to have joined the VIP.
Met alot of ppl, both younger and older than me... was motivated by them somehow... learnt alot of new stuff... touch up on my footdrills, evacuation and leadership... haha... honest speaking, this camp is not my worst camp I had... The toughest camp I had was Leadership Camp organised by the Infor Course. 3D2N only, but it's really hell... althou this camp is not the worst, it's considerabe 2nd worst bah, more on physically than mentally... it's either I really grown alot throu the years, or maybe the camp is really not stressful for me at all... 1 thing for sure, this camp is really a memorable 1... I'm oredi missing them... my groupmates, my day 1 com mate, my bunkmates...
1 thing I like about this camp... we are not classify according to our sch... we are so call not alot to idendify each other according to our sch... I'm quite glad that I'm considered to be one of the top trainees on camp... ppl seems to have some respect for me... lolx... dunno they fake it out or not la... but at least, I feel great when I feel respected... maybe I'm slightly older than them... althou not many ppl knows about that la, somehow they take my words quite well... compair with my Leadership Camp, my words is a joke to my coursemates sia... feel so unwanted... lolx... I love this camp, I love everyone in the camp... even the VIs, seems to me, they are not as big shot or dua pai as I thou some of them might be...
If I would to take in details of the camp, I'll be doing my camp report liao... lolx... I think I'll post my camp report once I'm done with it... anyway, the submission date for the camp report is this coming saturday... hmmm.... dun thik I'll have a problem writing the camp report lah... Alot of things to say about the camp... lolx... old man ar... naggin again...
here goes, the more personal feelings... somehow, during the camp, out of the 4 days camp, I think I had 2 days not missing or think of her... lolx... I think it's the 1st and 2nd day that i totally didn't think or been reminded of her... even got, it's a short 1 la... maybe too busy with the things required to be done... but the 3rd day and the 4th day, I was reminded... can't remember what remind me oredi.. haha... anyway, I felt I'm starting to let go... the feeling of missing, the feeling of being guilty, the feeling of upset seems to drop... of course, the feeling of still having feeling for her, seems to gone... for now or for good... only time can tell...
another issue, seems to me... my feelings seems to linger again... i meant the feeling for the opposite sex seems to hop again... as in, see 1, feel something for 1 la... from the camp got quite a couple oredi... damn! when did I became such a hua hua gong zi... lolx... let me see... hmmm... alpha dun have, bravo got 1 (manyan), charlie got 1(not sure the name, think it's eileen), delta got 2(rachel and yiping), echo got yan ying, foxtrot dun have... hmm... total got 4 of them sia... lolx.... die lah... one shot got 4 girls have feeling for... ok la... cannot say hua hua gong zi bah... cause I know these feelings usually comes and goes 1... haha... interested of knowing them more lor... it's more like saying possible cadidates that I might fall in love with... but not that I fallen in love with all 4 la... lolx... (defending myself) lolx...
let's see... manyan, because she's really cute and sweet when she dress formal during the campfire... she's the MC la... and she's dress it real tight sia... woooo~~ sexy... lolx... eileen has the natural beauty in her bah... it's a camp, yet she looks good... rachel, this is quite a silly 1... go into detail later on.. yiping is erm.... high on her X factor bah... althou I know her character sux, her X factor attracted me... yan ying leh, she's those... erm... how to say... gentle type of ger bah... yet not as gentle... dun really know for her la... maybe same group ar.. then same race, so... got some interest bah... ok... go into detail for rachel...
Simpify things, she looks like vanessa... that explain alot of things liao le bah? lolx... one thing, she is the opposite of vanessa in character wise... vanessa is strong in front of alot of ppl, but weak inside... for rachel, she seems so weak on the appearance, she look so sick and tired most of the time, but she pull throu the camp, did lots of the Day1 comm duties(believe to be the most tough comm of the whole camp). I'm day 1 com program IC... I helped her alot and of course, we work together alot... I can easily sees rachel weak side, the vanessa's weak side that I wish to protect since the start, I'm about to see that side of rachel so easily... that I can't help it but to keep offering my help to rachel... as i said, she looks like vanessa, from the back, wah... I'm even more willing to help her lor... but among all 4, this is the only 1 that I'm more interested 1... oso... this is the only 1 that I really control my feeling against with 1... can't take her as a spare tyre of vanessa... furthermore, I swear to myself, I'll not get attach any sooner...
time's running out.. gotta go for lesson liao... signing out soon... anyway, I'm at engine hall 1 now... sayonara...
B0mb3r screamed @ 10:21 AM