Now that you're gone...
I'm not really gone, but you oredi considered me gone... I know we argued badly last night... I know you'll cry... But I believe it's something I need to settle since it's brought up...
How on earth can I take it when you promise someone what you promised? And just by apologising, you wish I rest the case. I dun need apologise, what I need was an answer from you... How you can settle the case? What you really wanted at that moment of time? Why you promised what you promise?
You ask me how I want you to settle the case? That's consider an insult! For so much that I had showed you, you still dunno how I wish you settle the case... Do you think I'll say, "go ahead, promise is a promise... forfil your promise"? If you still thinks that's what I will most prob say to you, then that's true that you dun suit me at all... What I had done, what I try to show you... You just dun catch it...
Last night, I left not because I'm angry... maybe anger play a part, but the main reason... Coldness... whether or nt i slp, is not ur concern I oredi told you... I can't take any coldness anymore... Read my previous entries... I'm actually tired oso... just that you nv notice! DUN say you know, you just dunno!
If you dun understand how I feel? Think it this way...
Shu Ting sms me telling me a girl likes me... I replied I'm single, I wish to have a gf, but I dun think that girl suit me... Then shu ting replied, she's around her age, like you long time ago, just that nv have the guts to say... Then I replied her, We'll see first, if my current relationship doesn't work, I promise to be her bf? And this whole situation, only me and yu wen knows... I nv tell you... YW can't help it but tells you... When you get to find out, we are not very stable in the relationship... at the verge of ending something that didn't start... Furthermore, I'm not repling your sms lately, being cold towards you... Where do you find the gut to ask me, most prob if you ask, I would say things like yup, I dun have trust in this relationship, maybe I'm not for you... go look for yu wen bah... bye bye!
How that feels? If just by seeing what I typed make you feel irritated, then how will I feel when it happens to me?
If that 2 sentences said by apple hurtz, imagine this... You telling me, pretty often, that I should reconsider my thinking of you, you're not as angel as I think you are... This is just a few of the sentences you said b4...
How will you feel? If 1 day, I tell you, I just dun suit you, YW suit you better... GO! go look for him... you won't be happy with me... How will you feel?
FYI, b4 I get close to you, my emotions oredi very tired... I dunno where I found the strength to tah han your coldness for that long... Nah, I think I know... You are my strength... I know you heard it once, but you believe?
I woke up so early, coz I thinked of you, hoping to see ya sms when I woke up... but I guess, you nv bother to send any... woke up just to check your blog, but to find out you want everything to end already... Is that really what you want?
that night, expected you cry, thou that you will just cry on my shoulder... Why can't you just cry on my shoulder? Maybe is it, I'm not the one? I'm the devil, nv your guardian angel? that's why you can't cry with my presense?
If whatever you do is not my concern, then I guess, whatever I do, is not your concern too... then I guess, if anything serious that might happen to me, the first person that should cross my mind shouldn't be you anymore...
B0mb3r screamed @ 7:08 AM