Wednesday, September 29, 2004.

Conclusion? nahZ... it's Confusion!

I dun have conclusion la but my confusion is... let's say... if either of us think that we dun suit each other? what do you think will happen? we remain as friend? possible?

not clear to you? nvm... take it this way, I'm the one saying, I think you dun suit me, how will you feel? upset? worry? how will i feel? unbearable? possible for you to say this to me? "ok! let's be friends only." via versa, you said that to me, I'll be like wth, I thou we are ok? there's feeling! why you choose to give up? then I'll definately feel sad for a couple of days... but back to square 1, do we suit each other? I guess my answer to that question is... no

firstly, you think if flower were to wither, then why blossom in the first place? I think the flower dun need to blossom forever, ppl tend to take it for granted... it's more beautiful when it has a lifespam... chinese "Bu Zai Hu Tian Chang Di Jiu, Zi Zai Hu Cheng Jing Yong You" Then, your General Knowledge is much higher than me... I'm a slacker, You're a Seriouser! just this slacker and seriouser, can make me come to the conclusion, we dun suit each other... but what should we do even if we dun suit each other? I remember you saying, does it matter? you dun mind me slacking ar... then since you dun mind in the first place, then why think of suitablity in the first place...

Add on: Another thing, I just start thinking of it, now is 10.13, 29th sept. If even I have some xing shi, actually I always have, but can I tell you? Everytimes I sees you, it's either I feel I'm able to handle the thing alone, find the confidence around you... yet sometimes, I wish to just tell another soul... But that person always doesn't seems to be you, you are always so troubled and stress... I just dun feel like adding stress onto you... even I try to say abit, I feel you just dun really care... coz you tend to drift out of the topic... that's why you nv really hear me stress, coz I know you dun really bother about other ppl business... if you really does, why you nv ask?

Maybe there's this part when i feel I suit you, coz you speaks alot... and I'm a good listener... I can always listen to you, without even feel tired of it... but... you dun suit me, as in, I wants to look for someone to speak to, the person is never you! It could be my advisor, xueyu, suefeng, cibao, darren, my mum... but just not you... they knows more about my negetive side than you know about me... to you, I guess, you only sees my cheerful, passive, positive side...

I know there's the good point for me and you to think of suitability... that is to make sure we are serious about the relationship... hard to gain de dong xi, ppl tend to treasure it more...

(summary) actually, i'm trying to say... even we think we dun suit each other, do we bear to just let each other go? can we do it without pain and sadness? I dun think so... going back to just friend is not impossible, but are we both willing to go back to just friend? can we still be the same? even if we can be still the same... will you want to be just a friend of mine? my answer is no, i dun want to be just friend!

B0mb3r screamed @ 1:17 AM